Last Day of Undergraduate Class??

So yesterday marked my very last of class as an undergrad. Whoa! Pretty trippy. I haven't had much to blog about, actually, because these last flew weeks have seemed to blow by at such a rate that I haven't really given myself ample time to reflect on them. Take my last Coe College Choir Concert on Sunday: This would be my very last choir concert as a student, and my last time every performing a concert with these people again. There's no reason why I shouldn't have been anticipating this somber moment, but a combination of refusal to get emotional and busyness put the emotionality of singing in my last concert aside until the second half of the actual concert. Then it hit me like a tidal wave! It was so unexpected. All of a sudden in the middle of a silly song where the smaller group Crimson and Gold had everything from pans to construction cones on their heads, tears jumps right up to the brims of my eyes and couldn't be stopped! It was really out of the blue. I mean it's strange, because all my life I have been someone who emotionally prepared for big moments such as this so much it was almost to a fault. But some combination of studying abroad, graduating, and looking to the future, has evolved me into someone who focuses more on the happy things, the good-feeling things, the positive things. And it's great, but it obviously is a mindset that exists at the expense of moments for introspection. Don't get me wrong I still feel that I reflect on life quite frequently, but a person only has so much cognitive energy and so focusing on the here and the now and the positives takes up a little of that energy I would have typically spent on reflection. So needless to say, being suddenly overcome with repressed emotion was a new experience for me and one that came as a shock right in the middle of my last choir concert. My last choir concert! So strange. 

I really hope that I continue to sing outside of college. It's always an option to join a church choir, but the monotony of week after week, Sunday after Sunday singing church music may start to wear on me. Maybe I could find a secular choir? Or try out for a musical? Agh it's so weird! I keep having flashes of myself outside of college, sitting in my new apartment, looking up clubs or groups in the area where I can interact socially with new people! I mean what? No campus-sponsored clubs and organizations to choose from? No choir scholarships? No caf where everyone eats?? Weird!! How do you make friends outside of this structured place!? Weird, but exciting. :) 

Well today is Reading Day, which is dedicated to studying for finals week, which starts tomorrow. As I have two finals tomorrow, I think I'll start using this day for what it's intended for :) Stay tuned for graduation reflection!

Katie